Bonjourno World. ......
Last day of January (errr where the hell did 31 days go?!) feel like blink and i've missed it all - except the piss poor having no money longest month in the world ever part ..... Anyway how are you all?! Hopefully feeling chirpy and not too shabby from a weekend .....
So then, i only managed my 14 day detox didn't i .... not a drop of drink for 2 whole weeks - and yes i am proud of that due to the fact i love a glass .... soz bottle of wine most evenings! However - Saturday night i ended up back in Chelmsford town for a naughty really good little basement party .... and ended up sleeping at my old flat there too, which is quite random - my friend Amy now lives there so had a little preparty there where i didn't just fall off the wagon, but i dived off the wagon and ended up in the gutter before we even left the flat i'd drank half a bottle of baileys, half a bottle of apple sourz and was drinking vodka neat, and then mixing it with lucozade .... Soz about that but if your going to do something, do it in style ya get me ?!
This venue i went to was reamo, not even joking i've been in there a few times but it seemed like i was in a completely different venue, the music was ridiculously good and i was as drunk as drunk could be ... soz but didn't eat did i .... however, what establishment only has 1 yes i said ONE toilet for females ... LOOOOOOOOONG TING!! personally i don't even think 7 toilets for a busy venue is enough for a womens bathroom, so anyway 30 mins queuing for the toilet wasn't on my to-do list do u know what i mean!!! ridiculous ..... so anyways, i don't really remember much else about the night until i woke up on the sofa round my friends house with the washing up bowl next to me on the floor - i know what your all thinking, and i'm thinking the same ... Clearly was paraletic ... So pieced together the night from what Emma and Amy told me i'd been up too .... i went into the bathroom and found my eyelashes on the floor (i know, i know nice) and then in what used to be my old room was all my possessions strewn across the floor ..... god only knows what state i was in, i was guessing from the eyelashes on the floor i'd ripped them off and proceeded to be sick .... to which Amy confirmed - having made her rub my back in order to make myself sick .... how did i end up in such a state ..... and do you know what makes it even worse Amy told me i ate 4 slices of WHITE BREAD TOAST .... fucks sake Trebes, you've been ridiculously good for 2 weeks on eating and then you go and do this to yourself .... my only saving grace was i dragged my sorry unfit backside to the gym saturday morning and smashed all my previous personal bests on all the machines, i really did work myself hard ... so hopefully i've broken even .....
Needless to say, i still don't want to drink, and i am happy that i dont have to drink now until i go to Liverpool in March to see Luciano ... which i am less than impressed that Lewis isn't coming ... bloody DJ's and their bookings ..... Booked my train and my tickets however .... and i'm on Luciano countdown for first event of 2011 ..... <3 <3 <3 <3 I Love Him Don't I !!!! xxxx
Driving back from Chelmsford in my car, which btw i am loving having back, listening to some tunes decided that i'd pop to Fuse seeing as D.E.S boys were warming up and then Geddes was playing only wanted to go for a couple of hours , see the famalam as you do! So bloody glad i went aren't i ..... it was amaaaaazing from the off .... i love fuse when you turn up and its banging from 3pm ... cos days like that just stay good all day ... and what was even better, i was driving so it was a sensible sunday for me & i left just before Geddes finished and i think the man is bloody clever!! i never normally pay that much attention when i hear him at Mullet - usually cos my mind isn't quite all there due to one reason or another but honestly he's up there in one of my fave top london DJ's it has to be said .......
Hahahahahahaha ... biggest achievement ever was getting to the Gym for 7am today for my PT sesh (yes i want a medal and what?!!!?!) ... except it wasn't quite a sesh, more a chat a few exercises for my knee and some talk on eating food (proper good food i mean) but let me just tell you this ..... I have never been more disciplined in my life ever as i am right now ... probably something to do with the fact i am paying David Lloyd in excess of £200 a month for my gym membership and my PT ..... Who is a new PT, as my one left, and well 2 sleeve tattoo's how are you ...... jesus i am a sucker for a sleeve tattoo as it is .... i never normally look at the face, just the sleeve is normally enough .... However he is actually bloody brilliant .... he's going to re-do my training plan to accommodate my knee and get it working better and help me get just basically get in shape properly but i actually have learned a lot from him today and i'm bare happy that ive changed trainer to him now too..... I'm not gonna lie to you though i am sitting at work and i am struggling right now .... this insomnia malarky isn't the one i can tell you i am longing for a night like when i used to just lay o my bed at 8pm and drift off to sleep for 12 hours ......
Oh an do you know what ..... theres someone on my facebook who's been messaging me a lot from Chelmsford and you know when u just get this feeling that they want to take you out on a date and you reaaaaallllly don't even really like them let alone fancy them, but you've known them forever so u cant just delete them .... yeah well i've got one of those and in all honesty i need people to understand something ..... i left Chelmsford and everyone in it (except my Mum, Dad and Brother) behind .... and i am not the 15 year old teenager you used to know, so i'm basically just ignoring all these silly little lets have a bet and if i lose i'll take u out for dinner situations ..... HELLO NOT INTERESTED SOZ! And don't you just love it on your newsfeed when someone becomes single ... hahahahahahahaha thats all i can say ...... nothing like airing your dirty laundry in public is there ..... this people is why i will never entertain a relationship status on my facebook ...... its my business not yours .........
Now then while ive been writing this which has actually taken me nearly 2 hours, i've been on skype video to my parents who are at the happiest place on earth (disney in Florida ... i know i'm jel too) and given them a little shopping list which i am now backing up with specific visual instructions so they dont get the wrong stuff ..... you know macbook pro, uggs, anything marc jacobs and some new running trainers et all ...... Hello Macbook pro getting it in america 30th birthday present how are you ......
Better run as i need to send some emails now .... have a good week kiddies and remember, if you cant be good, be careful ... and if you can't be careful, at least get a phone number or remember their name! but most of all .... make it count! hahahaha
xxxx
Monday, 31 January 2011
Tuesday, 25 January 2011
Day 9 - Still Going Strong But my eyesight is absymal!
Where to start with today's thoughts in my head, hmmmn not really sure but I'm really struggling to see the screen I'm writing this in and its approximately 1 foot away from my head .... this can't be a good sign can it?! I've noticed lately that my eyesight is getting progressively worse ..... Please note, I've just donned my specs again to assist in this blog for a Tuesday.
Actually I don't really mind wearing my glasses, but if it happens that i need to wear them more often than not (which seemingly might be the case) then I'm getting them lasered ... the thought of sticking my fingers in my eyes is making me feel sick to get contacts in. This does remind me i need to ring the opticians, because honestly I'm spending most of the time squinting when I'm not wearing my specs.
Right well what else has been going on in my world ...... Oh yeah I'm now on day 9 of no boozing & let me tell you now, its about 300 times easier than i ever thought it would be, admittedly i am going to get a bit boozy on Saturday night, but overall i am really pleased with the fact Ive not touched a drop - what people need to understand is that my kitchen isn't full of empty wine bottles for recycling, which in previous weeks I've taken probably 8 empty bottles to the recycling in one week ..... i am a wine lover in case none of you knew, but I've been really good and stopped - and also fizzy drinks too they've been pretty much cut out my diet, I've not got any real reason / justification for this little booze vacation Ive been on apart from the fact I'm paying David Lloyd a silly amount of money each month so i thought I'd better make a conscious effort to live a healthy lifestyle all round.
Friday night i went to my friends Toga party - to be honest i didnt' actually dress up & i think that all my mates were really surprised with my good behaviour .... normally i would of caved within 3 minutes of being with my pals and cracked on with a drink and god knows what else .... (told you i wasn't an angel by any stretch of the imagination before) but since I've made a decision to not get on the laughing gas et all again i really have stuck to it ... Kieran was sure I'd leave the house by way of stumbling down the stairs, but i actually dug deep found the will power to not get as involved as i normally would .... and i actually LEFT the party before 1am because i knew i had a lot to do on Saturday, involving a little trip to the gym .... I've got NO idea where this discipline has come from, but honestly i am very glad its there because i actually feel amazing.
I have defo become obsessed with the Gym, I've been 4 out of the last 5 days, now I've always liked the gym when I've got into the routine of going but nothing like right now .... I'm going boxing tonight and then going to Spin on Thursday (probably may not live to see Friday, as its meant to be really hard) and me and the PT work out for once a week too for an hour, now I've only upped the training / gym in the last 10 days but i am actually really enjoying all that I'm doing now .... one of my good friends told me i need to aim for my big birthday in April to completely transform my fitness so I've thought f**k it why not .... so in my head that's what it is, i want to be double fit by that time ......
David Lloyd on the weekend is amazing ..... I'm sorry to be a typical woman but the men in there are seeeeeeeeriously easy on the eye! i can't help it now I'm trying to work out if the weekend is full of single people or not? i can't quite decide to be honest ..... .... Saturday there was some lovely sights to look at whilst sweating - yes i said sweating - on the x-trainer, but Sunday OH MY GOD ..... I'm sure those who know me have already heard the story of me and the total sort on the treadmill .... who was / is a proper man ... you know built like a man should be (and no i don't mean those beefed up dickheads on the steroids) Miss T spots him whilst I'm on the treadmill, and i sort of laugh to myself and he See's it ... i can't actually tell you why i laughed, i think it was a nervous reaction, but then i ended up on the rowing machine (meant to be on there 10 mins) and he then decides to get on the one next to me - needless to say it was very distracting and off putting to the point i had to get off after 5 mins .... took myself off to the bike that overlooks the weights where all the meat heads go and well My i want to sit on the rowing machine next to you saunters over and gets on the bench press directly in my view .... now I'm not saying any of this was on purpose but now i need to talk to this man and find out his name ... except I'm not gonna lie to you, i don't look my best in the gym now do i, cos i am there for one reason only ... to get fit. But i would really like to thank this bloke for keeping me working hard on the bike, not clock watching on it for once and well i managed 5 miles on there in 14 minutes so i was quite impressed. Probably will actually thank him too hahaha next time i see him!
I am going to Brazil for Xmas & New year .............Sao Paolo first to see my friend who lives there and I'm going to be away for about 3 weeks, i literally can't wait ... Sao Paolo & Rio De Janiero .... some of the girls are coming out boxing day to Rio so we'll have the best time ever ..... gotta start looking at booking the flights for this little excursion, but I've never been south America and this is going to be something I've always wanted to do !! Copacabana Beach how the hell are youuuuu! So basically I'm knocking all the pointless trips / festivals that I've done to death on the head and seriously saving it for this trip ..... Ibiza Closings is happening though as my best one Emma Rebecca Parr is paying for my flights as my birthday present, shes such a good friend honestly that's a great present .... DC10 closing and Cadenza Closing = happy little Clair ..... you know how much i love Luciano <3 <3 <3
How long has January been .... i seriously can't wait to get some money on Friday when we all finally get paid .... I've not been paid for 6 weeks (probably like most of you) and i have absolutely no idea how / where the money has come from ..... but alas, i will be getting it in one hand and paying it right out the other hand .... I finally last week paid my fine to Tower Hamlets £180 - that was a slap - but i did pay it 3 months late, oh and I've booked in for my speed awareness course in Feb, so i don't actually lose my driving licence or get 3 more points ... sore subject but I'm not gonna moan because I'm keeping my driving licence ...... just need to get my little car back now, because the courtesy car just isn't cool seriously!
On that note, i need to go & file the nail I've just broken ...... it never bloody rains it always pours! GUTTED!
Have a good week ..... I'm sure I'll write some more once I've survived spinning ..... but i am telling myself that it surely 'can't be that hard'
Much Love
Me xx
Actually I don't really mind wearing my glasses, but if it happens that i need to wear them more often than not (which seemingly might be the case) then I'm getting them lasered ... the thought of sticking my fingers in my eyes is making me feel sick to get contacts in. This does remind me i need to ring the opticians, because honestly I'm spending most of the time squinting when I'm not wearing my specs.
Right well what else has been going on in my world ...... Oh yeah I'm now on day 9 of no boozing & let me tell you now, its about 300 times easier than i ever thought it would be, admittedly i am going to get a bit boozy on Saturday night, but overall i am really pleased with the fact Ive not touched a drop - what people need to understand is that my kitchen isn't full of empty wine bottles for recycling, which in previous weeks I've taken probably 8 empty bottles to the recycling in one week ..... i am a wine lover in case none of you knew, but I've been really good and stopped - and also fizzy drinks too they've been pretty much cut out my diet, I've not got any real reason / justification for this little booze vacation Ive been on apart from the fact I'm paying David Lloyd a silly amount of money each month so i thought I'd better make a conscious effort to live a healthy lifestyle all round.
Friday night i went to my friends Toga party - to be honest i didnt' actually dress up & i think that all my mates were really surprised with my good behaviour .... normally i would of caved within 3 minutes of being with my pals and cracked on with a drink and god knows what else .... (told you i wasn't an angel by any stretch of the imagination before) but since I've made a decision to not get on the laughing gas et all again i really have stuck to it ... Kieran was sure I'd leave the house by way of stumbling down the stairs, but i actually dug deep found the will power to not get as involved as i normally would .... and i actually LEFT the party before 1am because i knew i had a lot to do on Saturday, involving a little trip to the gym .... I've got NO idea where this discipline has come from, but honestly i am very glad its there because i actually feel amazing.
I have defo become obsessed with the Gym, I've been 4 out of the last 5 days, now I've always liked the gym when I've got into the routine of going but nothing like right now .... I'm going boxing tonight and then going to Spin on Thursday (probably may not live to see Friday, as its meant to be really hard) and me and the PT work out for once a week too for an hour, now I've only upped the training / gym in the last 10 days but i am actually really enjoying all that I'm doing now .... one of my good friends told me i need to aim for my big birthday in April to completely transform my fitness so I've thought f**k it why not .... so in my head that's what it is, i want to be double fit by that time ......
David Lloyd on the weekend is amazing ..... I'm sorry to be a typical woman but the men in there are seeeeeeeeriously easy on the eye! i can't help it now I'm trying to work out if the weekend is full of single people or not? i can't quite decide to be honest ..... .... Saturday there was some lovely sights to look at whilst sweating - yes i said sweating - on the x-trainer, but Sunday OH MY GOD ..... I'm sure those who know me have already heard the story of me and the total sort on the treadmill .... who was / is a proper man ... you know built like a man should be (and no i don't mean those beefed up dickheads on the steroids) Miss T spots him whilst I'm on the treadmill, and i sort of laugh to myself and he See's it ... i can't actually tell you why i laughed, i think it was a nervous reaction, but then i ended up on the rowing machine (meant to be on there 10 mins) and he then decides to get on the one next to me - needless to say it was very distracting and off putting to the point i had to get off after 5 mins .... took myself off to the bike that overlooks the weights where all the meat heads go and well My i want to sit on the rowing machine next to you saunters over and gets on the bench press directly in my view .... now I'm not saying any of this was on purpose but now i need to talk to this man and find out his name ... except I'm not gonna lie to you, i don't look my best in the gym now do i, cos i am there for one reason only ... to get fit. But i would really like to thank this bloke for keeping me working hard on the bike, not clock watching on it for once and well i managed 5 miles on there in 14 minutes so i was quite impressed. Probably will actually thank him too hahaha next time i see him!
I am going to Brazil for Xmas & New year .............Sao Paolo first to see my friend who lives there and I'm going to be away for about 3 weeks, i literally can't wait ... Sao Paolo & Rio De Janiero .... some of the girls are coming out boxing day to Rio so we'll have the best time ever ..... gotta start looking at booking the flights for this little excursion, but I've never been south America and this is going to be something I've always wanted to do !! Copacabana Beach how the hell are youuuuu! So basically I'm knocking all the pointless trips / festivals that I've done to death on the head and seriously saving it for this trip ..... Ibiza Closings is happening though as my best one Emma Rebecca Parr is paying for my flights as my birthday present, shes such a good friend honestly that's a great present .... DC10 closing and Cadenza Closing = happy little Clair ..... you know how much i love Luciano <3 <3 <3
How long has January been .... i seriously can't wait to get some money on Friday when we all finally get paid .... I've not been paid for 6 weeks (probably like most of you) and i have absolutely no idea how / where the money has come from ..... but alas, i will be getting it in one hand and paying it right out the other hand .... I finally last week paid my fine to Tower Hamlets £180 - that was a slap - but i did pay it 3 months late, oh and I've booked in for my speed awareness course in Feb, so i don't actually lose my driving licence or get 3 more points ... sore subject but I'm not gonna moan because I'm keeping my driving licence ...... just need to get my little car back now, because the courtesy car just isn't cool seriously!
On that note, i need to go & file the nail I've just broken ...... it never bloody rains it always pours! GUTTED!
Have a good week ..... I'm sure I'll write some more once I've survived spinning ..... but i am telling myself that it surely 'can't be that hard'
Much Love
Me xx
Thursday, 20 January 2011
Facebook, Water, Heating & Light .... thank you David Lloyd
Right I'm on for a midweek (ok Thursday) rant ...... ooopps soz i mean blog!
Do you know what I've actually had the most ridiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiic week all because of simple things we take for granted .... LIGHTING, HEATING AND HOT WATER ...... Well let me just tell you, i will NEVER take such things granted again.
Sorry i'm just gonna go on a tangent, this truth about cocaine is making me feel sick - i really don't need to see septum's bleeding and operations, its making me feel like i want to vomit in my mouth. Anyway back to the thoughts in hand .......
So you know (well i think I've said this before) we've had no heating / hot water or lights since last Saturday, well living in the Arctic would of been better, and at such times like this i thank god for my David Lloyd membership as we've been using their shower facilities ..... But right now my house is hot and the water is warm .... having spent most of my time speed dialling my landlord, him not answering, thus pissing me off even further so i keep redialling him til he answered - it finally worked ..... last night a proper electrician - albeit a polish one - come round to have a look at what on earth has been occurring in the conservatory roof of the kitchen ..... What people you don't understand is that i no about as much about electrics and plumbing as those dickhead boys in my previous blog know about music (NOT A LOT) so who do i turn to in times like these for assistance in knowing what to say .... Yep my Daddy, he wrote me a little note that i had to give to the electrician to read which basically was talking about ring mains heating and lights being wired wrong to each other blah blah blah .... what you lost interest after ring main ... yeah so did i .... that's my biggest problem, it bores me just effing work already!!!!!!!!!! Well the lovely little polish dude sourced the problem, rewired the boiler to somewhere else (assuring me where its meant to be 'spurred' off something ... yeah again, lost interest again havent' i) The light in the kitchen don't work, but apparently on Saturday it will be ... the lack of light i can live with ... the lack of heat and hot water .... NO CHANCE!!!!
I come home from work earlier to get ready to actually do to David Lloyd for a proper work out and guess what ..... the pissing annoying boiler isn't working ........................... OH MY GOD DROP ME OUT ...... rang my landlord, who you need to understand is probably pissed off with me and how I'm speaking to him right now because honestly my patience has worn beyond thing ..... 20 mins later the little dude (not the polish electrician) who always comes round to fix things appears, resets it and shows me whats occurring and alas it now is OK again ... honestly people i can't even tell you how much i took for granted the simple things we just expect to work
This cocaine programme is really disturbing me .... and the ecstasy one last week that also has too ..... i feel quite sorry for the people that are on these programmes .... don't get me wrong I'm not calling myself a saint not by any stretch of the word but seriously this programme should be a wake up call to a lot of people i know ..... the rat with the shaved eyebrow sitting with his hand on the steering wheel with a pint in hand .... seriously your a disgrace ....
I've set myself a little challenge that (starting Monday of this week) i wouldn't drink until the 29th and so far so good ..... 4 days in and I've had no wine, and by now during the week I'd of easily had about 2 bottles of red wine! The weekend will be the test, especially Saturday night, but as I'm actually not leaving the borders of chigwell all weekend as I'm not going out this should be quite easy .... hahaha famous last words i know but in all honesty I'm actually going to spend some time in the Gym and I'm even going after work tomorrow ... did a nice hour of cardio earlier so tomorrow I'm gonna work on the weights ..... I'm finding the whole not drinking really easy right now too so might as well just stick with the will power and then have a little drink next Saturday when i go back to chelmsford to see some old faces .....
Facebook ............. GOD I AM SO OVER IT ...... I am actually contemplating deleting mine, I've been having various chats with a lot of my mates lately, and we're all feeling the same ..... like i actually want to live in the real world ... not the cyber one, and i am as guilty as anyone else as over using facebook at work when I'm bored (which is a lot of the time) but actually do you know what I'm over it ... i am actually going to stop using it so much now - like i was looking on the news feed the other day and i thought to myself, what ever happened to calling one of your mates to see how they are or what there doing?!?! Facebook used to be great i think, but its over used .... i think its ruined promoters events to a degree ..... whatever happened to good old fashioned flyering for events .... e-marketing is great and this is a useful tool, but i am not joking earlier today i clicked 'not attending' to the same party on 7 events ... all created within about 6 mins of each other ..... that people is excessive, and its more than that too, its annoying ..... my inbox on facebook has about 3500 messages unread in there because people over spam / over message their events ... i more than anyone understand the need to promote your event, but i honestly think facebook has ruined it ..... a lot of promoters and those who are putting on parties now think if you want a good party all you need to do promote it and make people aware of it is to pump it out on facebook ..... so so wrong and i see so many parties or hear about parties not doing well and i think well ive not seen a flyer or a DJ helping to pump it out there but my god I've had about 70 invites on facebook!!!! hahahaha ......
in a nutshell I'm over it, and those who read this who are friends with me on there, will notice my presence on there is a lot less and will stay like that!
2011 is all about making positive changes .... I've got a milestone birthday on the horizon and so far mentally i think i am getting there i feel different, like things are becoming clearer and i want my life to go in a certain direction .....
Anyway I'm off to watch some more Ugly Betty I'm shattered and i need my beauty sleep!!!
Friday tomorrow .... its the weekend, so enjoy it all and whatever your doing .... make it count!!!!! and someone somewhere have a DISCO Dance for me cos I'll be watching Take Me Out whilst eating a lettuce leaf!!
Big Love
xx
Do you know what I've actually had the most ridiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiic week all because of simple things we take for granted .... LIGHTING, HEATING AND HOT WATER ...... Well let me just tell you, i will NEVER take such things granted again.
Sorry i'm just gonna go on a tangent, this truth about cocaine is making me feel sick - i really don't need to see septum's bleeding and operations, its making me feel like i want to vomit in my mouth. Anyway back to the thoughts in hand .......
So you know (well i think I've said this before) we've had no heating / hot water or lights since last Saturday, well living in the Arctic would of been better, and at such times like this i thank god for my David Lloyd membership as we've been using their shower facilities ..... But right now my house is hot and the water is warm .... having spent most of my time speed dialling my landlord, him not answering, thus pissing me off even further so i keep redialling him til he answered - it finally worked ..... last night a proper electrician - albeit a polish one - come round to have a look at what on earth has been occurring in the conservatory roof of the kitchen ..... What people you don't understand is that i no about as much about electrics and plumbing as those dickhead boys in my previous blog know about music (NOT A LOT) so who do i turn to in times like these for assistance in knowing what to say .... Yep my Daddy, he wrote me a little note that i had to give to the electrician to read which basically was talking about ring mains heating and lights being wired wrong to each other blah blah blah .... what you lost interest after ring main ... yeah so did i .... that's my biggest problem, it bores me just effing work already!!!!!!!!!! Well the lovely little polish dude sourced the problem, rewired the boiler to somewhere else (assuring me where its meant to be 'spurred' off something ... yeah again, lost interest again havent' i) The light in the kitchen don't work, but apparently on Saturday it will be ... the lack of light i can live with ... the lack of heat and hot water .... NO CHANCE!!!!
I come home from work earlier to get ready to actually do to David Lloyd for a proper work out and guess what ..... the pissing annoying boiler isn't working ........................... OH MY GOD DROP ME OUT ...... rang my landlord, who you need to understand is probably pissed off with me and how I'm speaking to him right now because honestly my patience has worn beyond thing ..... 20 mins later the little dude (not the polish electrician) who always comes round to fix things appears, resets it and shows me whats occurring and alas it now is OK again ... honestly people i can't even tell you how much i took for granted the simple things we just expect to work
This cocaine programme is really disturbing me .... and the ecstasy one last week that also has too ..... i feel quite sorry for the people that are on these programmes .... don't get me wrong I'm not calling myself a saint not by any stretch of the word but seriously this programme should be a wake up call to a lot of people i know ..... the rat with the shaved eyebrow sitting with his hand on the steering wheel with a pint in hand .... seriously your a disgrace ....
I've set myself a little challenge that (starting Monday of this week) i wouldn't drink until the 29th and so far so good ..... 4 days in and I've had no wine, and by now during the week I'd of easily had about 2 bottles of red wine! The weekend will be the test, especially Saturday night, but as I'm actually not leaving the borders of chigwell all weekend as I'm not going out this should be quite easy .... hahaha famous last words i know but in all honesty I'm actually going to spend some time in the Gym and I'm even going after work tomorrow ... did a nice hour of cardio earlier so tomorrow I'm gonna work on the weights ..... I'm finding the whole not drinking really easy right now too so might as well just stick with the will power and then have a little drink next Saturday when i go back to chelmsford to see some old faces .....
Facebook ............. GOD I AM SO OVER IT ...... I am actually contemplating deleting mine, I've been having various chats with a lot of my mates lately, and we're all feeling the same ..... like i actually want to live in the real world ... not the cyber one, and i am as guilty as anyone else as over using facebook at work when I'm bored (which is a lot of the time) but actually do you know what I'm over it ... i am actually going to stop using it so much now - like i was looking on the news feed the other day and i thought to myself, what ever happened to calling one of your mates to see how they are or what there doing?!?! Facebook used to be great i think, but its over used .... i think its ruined promoters events to a degree ..... whatever happened to good old fashioned flyering for events .... e-marketing is great and this is a useful tool, but i am not joking earlier today i clicked 'not attending' to the same party on 7 events ... all created within about 6 mins of each other ..... that people is excessive, and its more than that too, its annoying ..... my inbox on facebook has about 3500 messages unread in there because people over spam / over message their events ... i more than anyone understand the need to promote your event, but i honestly think facebook has ruined it ..... a lot of promoters and those who are putting on parties now think if you want a good party all you need to do promote it and make people aware of it is to pump it out on facebook ..... so so wrong and i see so many parties or hear about parties not doing well and i think well ive not seen a flyer or a DJ helping to pump it out there but my god I've had about 70 invites on facebook!!!! hahahaha ......
in a nutshell I'm over it, and those who read this who are friends with me on there, will notice my presence on there is a lot less and will stay like that!
2011 is all about making positive changes .... I've got a milestone birthday on the horizon and so far mentally i think i am getting there i feel different, like things are becoming clearer and i want my life to go in a certain direction .....
Anyway I'm off to watch some more Ugly Betty I'm shattered and i need my beauty sleep!!!
Friday tomorrow .... its the weekend, so enjoy it all and whatever your doing .... make it count!!!!! and someone somewhere have a DISCO Dance for me cos I'll be watching Take Me Out whilst eating a lettuce leaf!!
Big Love
xx
Monday, 17 January 2011
Blue Monday
So today is meant to be Blue Monday ..... The most depressing day of the year - Well i wouldn't necessarily agree with that, but today has been a long and boring day, made longer by the fact that i actually got to work earlier than i am meant to be there ...... *note self don't be early for work on a Monday ever again* So amongst all the facebook and twitter updates and then all the general blue Monday chat all over the radio i have actually been quite bored reading about how people are depressed on Blue Monday .... Get over it, its January, it was dreary and miserable in London, but life could be worse .... you could be dying or homeless and not able to update your twitter / facebooks etc ...... Soz if i sound harsh, but you can't argue with the fact that its true ....
My weekend was a right mixed bag of bad news, funny moments, horrific hangovers and a huge realisation that my Sunday sessions are (as i previously thought) pretty much over ........ Friday night I walked through my front door and within about 3 mins being in the house got a text from my oldest friend in the world to tell me that her mum had a heart attack ..... Not the best start to a weekend you get me ... what do you say to someone .... there just aren't any words .... so i just texted back being positive about it and offering my support and love .... i then rang to speak to my own mum .... who was as shell shocked as me 2bh, but i also made the point of telling my mum how much she means to me .... its not like me to be a negative person on a downer but it has made me think that as im getting older so are my parents & i know things can happen at anytime to anyone of us, but i said at the beginning of the year i was going to make time for the people i care for the most and that news just made me want to do it more.
I'm currently sitting in a FREEZING cold house with no heating / hot water and no lights in my bathroom and kitchen, lord only knows whats happened but i think in our kitchen we've got some sort of short circuit cos Saturday afternoon, after i played stig of the dump at the local tip, there was loads if little bangs in the kitchen and then the lights kept tripping out .... this continued until i nearly electrocuted myself Sunday morning so i haven't touched the mains fuse box since .... and well lets just say my landlord isn't the best at getting back to us ..... its not even like i can say well we're not paying our rent because thats not due for another 2 weeks .... but im seriously getting the hump now chasing him, if it not fixed tomorrow then i'm calling my own electrician and taking it off the rent ..... haha clair trebes isn't a door mat!!!
Saturday was a gooooooood day! Me & Emma got rid of loads of crap and rubbish out of our house down the tip, and since then Emma has become obsessed with recycling ... dont get me wrong i do the whole filling out recycling box, but since we saw how much u can recycle there, emma is now adamant we're recycling and splitting the rubbish down even more .... We're not being accused of having a high carbon footprint!!! (my god how old and boring do i actually sound?) i suppose it is important to do your bit i guess .......
Ended up going down to my fav local bar sat night again *shock* drinking half a bottle of vodka before i even left the house - i know you dont need to tell me, the fact that it didn't get me even merry let alone pissed means ive got problems .... so obviously got right out of hand down the bar did'nt i - ok not right out of hand but i was bare pissed by the time i left ... the doorman or for the duration of the time (which aint long believe me) i will carry on talking about him MEATHEAD as i will be calling him .... urgh what was i thinking - so i've clearly got that moment out my head .... we had a 5 min chat where he was whinging about his back and how he can leg press 600kg .... seriously?! Bothered ..... couldn't care less, so i come home texted him and then decided to delete his number out my phone ..... i love doing that, deleting someones number so you can reply 'whos this' sometimes i do this even if the no is in my phone, you have to keep people on their toes ...... Besides this doorman is actually from Chelmsford and to be honest that just does'nt sit right with me anyways ....
My mates are all finally home from thailand .... thank god - minus a monkey i might add ..... and i specifically asked for one to be smuggled home - not impressed!!!!! so we went for a sunday reunion at Fuse .... had a little pre party at home first where about 5 bottles of wine got drunk and i styled Miss Parr - FACT SHE LOOKED BANGING ....... went and met the usual suspects in the courtyard at 93 feet east - to here some really amazing news .... 2 of my friends are going to become parents!!! <3 They've not been together very long, but they are the most suited couple ever and blissfully in love so theres going to be this whole little person coming along into a happy bubble of friends who will probably spoil it rotten ..... i was thinking the other day how much i'd like a little baby to fuss over (not my own obvs) cos they are great and helloooooo all saints kids section ..... i was saying the other day when i was in there that one day i will have a child who will be better dressed than me .... hahaha
That said tho i didn't really have that much of a good day, ive been thinking for a few weeks now that i am quite over the whole raving scene, and its not because i dont like the music or the people, but i just feel like there is so much more to my life, but all i'm known for is being this person who's always partying and never sleeps ..... Do you even know how much i've enjoyed wearing heels lately rather than living in my military boots and converse .... i very much think i am turning into the kind of person who likes being in my house with my mates round, cooking nice dinners and drinking .... im not even gonna bore everyone by saying god its weird, its not weird its just what happens as you get older ...... but dont write of the raver in me just yet because i think (no i know) she will still be there for the likes of Luciano appearances and the odd Marco Carola ones too ..... oh and probably dice!!! haha
Getting my courtesy car tomorrow at last so i can get myself down that gym, i've not been since last weds ..... I've banned Carbs in my life in the evenings .... i've decided i'm eating too many and getting fat ..... i'd actually love to go on the biggest loser just so i could be in that boot camp .....my god my PT has got his work cut out, but i was very happy that i managed nearly 3 miles on my bike in the gym the other day in under 10 mins ..... the very same session i tripped over myself on the treadmill cos the sort in there was staring at me ..... VERY OFF PUTTING!!!
Whats on the cards this week ..... Gym , Gym, Mate Date with Stacy, Bit More Gym, Sunbed, chilled weekend indoors and probably a sunday morning spin class ..... kill me now!!!
Oh and i just want to mention .... Lewi - his blog was rather impressive yet predictable .... but i'm loving the fact i'm starting a trend ....... i'm not even started on this one yet - because believe me once i get going its going to be the funniest thing evs .....
Now i'm going to hang my washing up, take off my make up and put myself to bed ...... i am so rock n roll i make myself siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiick!
Happy Blue Monday everyone
Ciao Bambinos xx
Thursday, 13 January 2011
I Like Driving In My Car .......
I'm sitting here on my majorly uncomfortable sofa watching my boaty new TV that i got for Xmas catching up on a few bits i've got on the Sky+ to watch .... ok so Take Me Outs on the hit list ..... Scott from cambridge fyi ISN'T fit .... not one little bit ..... i'm feeling like a right fat old thing cos Emma cooked the most banging dinner and i've consumed a little bit of booze *shock* this evening ...... and i'm gonna even smoke another fag just because ......
I'm in a really weird mood today, probably the worst start to a Thursday ever - decided to drive my motor into some old bint's car at the traffic lights this morning on my way to work didn't i .... car really needed a new bonnet so just decided the best thing to do was to just go into the back of someone ..... can you even believe me i am soooooooooooo cross right now - thats completely f**ked things up for me, now i've gotta get the car repaired, insurance job etc so I'm having to sacrifice my little weekend break with my best pals to the german techno haven that is Berlin .............. FUMING PLEASE DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT IT, I AM GUTTED .... gonna miss out on Berghain, Panorama Bar & Watergate ......
This take me out makes me actually DIE ..... these women are actually desperate - remind me if i ever turn into one lock me in a room for my own safety alone - who actually says things like they do to men?! Well maybe apparently women like that are the majority and perhaps i'm the minority , however Paddy McGuiness is a proper SORT!!! ..... that said, i was twittering the other day saying how much i'd like to go on a date .... well the fact of the matter is, i want to go on a nice date, a proper one with someone who actually does'nt make my skin crawl - is that actually too much to ask?! i think not myself but apparently its like asking to get blood out of a stone .....
So anyways, the bouncer is driving me mad - its all my own fault too, i decide to hmmmmn pursue him a little bit, by getting his phone no, and now he's driving me mental to come round, errr how about no take me for bloody dinner!!! Hes a bouncer tho, so you know as well as i do its going no where fast, i dont even know what i was thinking he's not remotely my type and a bit of a meat head .... but weirdly he's caught my eye - i'm quite sure i'll be over it by sunday .... and well cracking on to a bouncer in one of your most visited bars is surely asking for trouble right?! Someone actually tell me that it is, for the love of GOD ..... I've got this odd feeling that i'm going to get myself into a right little situation, which i can clearly see happening, yet theres nothing i can do to stop it .... i've accepted in my life that sometimes i just have to let these things happen, be it good or bad .... i'm just hoping that well it don't get too complicated ... god i'm so fickle, personally i'm blaming the red wine consumed sunday in the king will which egged myself on to text back .... Playing by the Rules THE ENDDDDDDDDDDDDD (from now on in)
So i've been on a facebook delete lately, deleted some right tobys .... who i personally can't stand - mainly because i don't like people who are vile and rude about others knowing nothing about them ..... you know the narrow minded Romford boys who think they are better than what they are .... you know the kind who say 'urgh im not going mulletover/fuse cos its too essex' errrrr hellooooooo you are from f**king essex .... deal with it ........ and factually i'm correct .... because these dickheads who actually go to mullet / fuse or circo loco only go cos its cool .. none of them got a clue about DJ's or Music ....
I LOVE Music ... and DJs - not because everyone else does, but because i like good music ... all good music .... my point is perfectly proven on NYD at Circo Loco ... i despiseeeeeeeeeeee Great Suffolk St carpark ... fact Circo Loco at Matter was the nuts dont care what anyone says, matter was / is a good club anyways, i'm on a tangent, let me get back to what i was talking about ..... People go to parties cos they think its cool ..... if i hear 'Lee Foss is sick' one more time i will scream ................. Lee Foss was playing early at Circo, and a large selection of people thought Dyed Soundorom was Lee Foss (until i clearly pointed out it wasn't) I was sent to hunt down Lee (because no one knows what he looks like!!!!) .... there he was playing to an empty room ... so i told him i'd fill the room ... he looked bored and uninterested (and that people didn't change during his whole set - which for once, wasn't bad) So went and found the 'faces' who love lee foss ... and you know what .... all i got was 'are u sure thats lee' 'its not very good' ha ha ha ... make me laugh or what ... Lee Foss is a superb producer and in the studio (in my opinion) but watching him play out ... nah not so much and for NYD he wasn't that spangled, so i for one was quite impressed ...... Aftermath, people can't believe it wasn't as good as his podcasts they all have on repeat at various after parties i've been at!!!
Just my opinions, it don't make me right ... but i am right on the whole Essex thing - drives me bloody potty .... Stop being ashamed of it and looking down your nose ..... you are from essex - deal with it!!!!!!!!!!!
For the Record .... LUCIANO IS THE BEST DJ EVER ...... Thank You and Goodnight
<3 Big Love
Clairy x
I'm in a really weird mood today, probably the worst start to a Thursday ever - decided to drive my motor into some old bint's car at the traffic lights this morning on my way to work didn't i .... car really needed a new bonnet so just decided the best thing to do was to just go into the back of someone ..... can you even believe me i am soooooooooooo cross right now - thats completely f**ked things up for me, now i've gotta get the car repaired, insurance job etc so I'm having to sacrifice my little weekend break with my best pals to the german techno haven that is Berlin .............. FUMING PLEASE DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT IT, I AM GUTTED .... gonna miss out on Berghain, Panorama Bar & Watergate ......
This take me out makes me actually DIE ..... these women are actually desperate - remind me if i ever turn into one lock me in a room for my own safety alone - who actually says things like they do to men?! Well maybe apparently women like that are the majority and perhaps i'm the minority , however Paddy McGuiness is a proper SORT!!! ..... that said, i was twittering the other day saying how much i'd like to go on a date .... well the fact of the matter is, i want to go on a nice date, a proper one with someone who actually does'nt make my skin crawl - is that actually too much to ask?! i think not myself but apparently its like asking to get blood out of a stone .....
So anyways, the bouncer is driving me mad - its all my own fault too, i decide to hmmmmn pursue him a little bit, by getting his phone no, and now he's driving me mental to come round, errr how about no take me for bloody dinner!!! Hes a bouncer tho, so you know as well as i do its going no where fast, i dont even know what i was thinking he's not remotely my type and a bit of a meat head .... but weirdly he's caught my eye - i'm quite sure i'll be over it by sunday .... and well cracking on to a bouncer in one of your most visited bars is surely asking for trouble right?! Someone actually tell me that it is, for the love of GOD ..... I've got this odd feeling that i'm going to get myself into a right little situation, which i can clearly see happening, yet theres nothing i can do to stop it .... i've accepted in my life that sometimes i just have to let these things happen, be it good or bad .... i'm just hoping that well it don't get too complicated ... god i'm so fickle, personally i'm blaming the red wine consumed sunday in the king will which egged myself on to text back .... Playing by the Rules THE ENDDDDDDDDDDDDD (from now on in)
So i've been on a facebook delete lately, deleted some right tobys .... who i personally can't stand - mainly because i don't like people who are vile and rude about others knowing nothing about them ..... you know the narrow minded Romford boys who think they are better than what they are .... you know the kind who say 'urgh im not going mulletover/fuse cos its too essex' errrrr hellooooooo you are from f**king essex .... deal with it ........ and factually i'm correct .... because these dickheads who actually go to mullet / fuse or circo loco only go cos its cool .. none of them got a clue about DJ's or Music ....
I LOVE Music ... and DJs - not because everyone else does, but because i like good music ... all good music .... my point is perfectly proven on NYD at Circo Loco ... i despiseeeeeeeeeeee Great Suffolk St carpark ... fact Circo Loco at Matter was the nuts dont care what anyone says, matter was / is a good club anyways, i'm on a tangent, let me get back to what i was talking about ..... People go to parties cos they think its cool ..... if i hear 'Lee Foss is sick' one more time i will scream ................. Lee Foss was playing early at Circo, and a large selection of people thought Dyed Soundorom was Lee Foss (until i clearly pointed out it wasn't) I was sent to hunt down Lee (because no one knows what he looks like!!!!) .... there he was playing to an empty room ... so i told him i'd fill the room ... he looked bored and uninterested (and that people didn't change during his whole set - which for once, wasn't bad) So went and found the 'faces' who love lee foss ... and you know what .... all i got was 'are u sure thats lee' 'its not very good' ha ha ha ... make me laugh or what ... Lee Foss is a superb producer and in the studio (in my opinion) but watching him play out ... nah not so much and for NYD he wasn't that spangled, so i for one was quite impressed ...... Aftermath, people can't believe it wasn't as good as his podcasts they all have on repeat at various after parties i've been at!!!
Just my opinions, it don't make me right ... but i am right on the whole Essex thing - drives me bloody potty .... Stop being ashamed of it and looking down your nose ..... you are from essex - deal with it!!!!!!!!!!!
For the Record .... LUCIANO IS THE BEST DJ EVER ...... Thank You and Goodnight
<3 Big Love
Clairy x
Tuesday, 11 January 2011
One for a Tuesday
I'm gonna write some random rubbish every now and then ..... Much to the horror of people who know me, and the entertainment of those who don't .....
Sometimes i might name & shame people if i think its worth it, after all this is my space to say whatever i like ..... but its only my opinion / thoughts / beliefs - I did this a while back when i was like 24 & reading on some of the things i used to say, i did laugh a lot ..... there on my myspace - which i think just about still exists .....
Most of the time i might just talk about the sex, drugs and Fuse in my life and then sometimes i might talk about some other shizzle which interests me (probably some non important ZELEB shite that i've witnessed in my local pub .... Yes people its the King William IV from THAT programme based in the part of Essex i reside in)
For the record though .... i am actually an Islington girl who grew up in Chelmsford and then last year upped and moved myself to the vainest part of Essex known to man .... i've fully immersed myself into it & i am the polar opposite of the wagabees that flock to this area .... but i really do love where i live & have some amaaaaazing people in my life from round here!
I don't really have much else to say right now ... well except the fact that i'm listening to Radio 1 at work but wondering if i can get away with playing Locodice & Marco Carola new mix that i downloaded last night without anyone moaning about the 'noise' .... i need to see if its actually any good!
Thats all for now .......
x
Sometimes i might name & shame people if i think its worth it, after all this is my space to say whatever i like ..... but its only my opinion / thoughts / beliefs - I did this a while back when i was like 24 & reading on some of the things i used to say, i did laugh a lot ..... there on my myspace - which i think just about still exists .....
Most of the time i might just talk about the sex, drugs and Fuse in my life and then sometimes i might talk about some other shizzle which interests me (probably some non important ZELEB shite that i've witnessed in my local pub .... Yes people its the King William IV from THAT programme based in the part of Essex i reside in)
For the record though .... i am actually an Islington girl who grew up in Chelmsford and then last year upped and moved myself to the vainest part of Essex known to man .... i've fully immersed myself into it & i am the polar opposite of the wagabees that flock to this area .... but i really do love where i live & have some amaaaaazing people in my life from round here!
I don't really have much else to say right now ... well except the fact that i'm listening to Radio 1 at work but wondering if i can get away with playing Locodice & Marco Carola new mix that i downloaded last night without anyone moaning about the 'noise' .... i need to see if its actually any good!
Thats all for now .......
x
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